I need a new problem. I think I may already have a new problem so I'm probably not going to need to work too hard on this one.
Let me explain. We all have problems. Making our problems go away is futile because we're always going to have problems - it's life. One of the things we can do is get bigger problems or uplevel the problems we have and then the little ones go away. It's a way of shifting focus, of getting out of a current state of mind into another one.
I almost had a very unwanted new problem on Valentine's Day as I had a minor accident in the afternoon. "My car!" I was driving and crying and looking down at my BlackBerry. I know, I know. I know! I was very lucky in that nothing happened. We both stopped, pulled over, noticed that nothing had occurred and then got back into our cars and went on our ways. So if I had all of a sudden had a car accident for real, I'd have a great big new problem that would take over my mental space and hopefully spare me from the current pain I'm in, offering me some other kind of pain to deal with.
Fortunately, that did not happen and I get to choose a new problem. I could call it a project or something else, but for me the idea of it being a problem works. I need to focus my attention off of my dead relationship and the pursuit of a new one all of a sudden, and focus instead on my work and home life.
Now that I'm back on my own financially, I need to make sure that I'm going to be able to do it. Over the two years that John lived with me prices went up where I live, I bought a more expensive car, which takes more gas, and we have cable and I'm still paying off a big TV we bought before Christmas. Plus I did the last minute trip, which took a bite and we did just do Christmas. And there was a bus strike so yoga class numbers were down, and you get the picture. I'm not sure how I'm doing financially and that is a problem in itself.
So my new problem will be to thrive financially. Not just survive, but actually thrive. That's the game. I'll keep you posted. Every once in a while I come up with an idea that will take me away from teaching yoga. I fantasize about running a shop that sells stuff. Totally not yoga. I think of online businesses, yoga teaching ideas, books, DVDs, you know, you've heard me. So that's the new game. I was actually working on it when I met John, but I was hoping that a great relationship would take care of me and I wouldn't need to pursue my other ideas. For someone so smart I really am so naive sometimes. Okay, often. Oh well.